Monday, November 9, 2020

Paddle-Out

Paddle-Out

Walking out toward the point to attend Jack O’Neill's Memorial Paddle-Out, I feast my eyes on three thousand surfers and paddle boarders forming a gigantic circle beyond the surf at Pleasure Point in Santa Cruz.  Black dots on the ocean become visible in succession as the breaking sun backlights the scrim of morning fog.  More and more wetsuits glisten into view, way out there, when sunlight hits their shoulders.  The watery circle comes into focus and the enormity of it takes my breath. 

Jack, who died this summer, would be humbled.  He lived on the cliff overlooking the point, where his wooden fence is now strewn with flowers and notes of sorrow.  The late surfing legend Jack O'Neill invented the wetsuit in the 1960s simply because he wanted to stay in the water and surf longer.  His son Pat invented the surf-leash ten years later because it let him paddle less and surf more. 

Today his grieving family enters the honored circle on Jack’s first sailboat, an old double-mast he'd rescued as a teen.  There are hundreds of small kayaks and larger watercraft moored beyond the circle, which itself is more than a mile-and-a-half in diameter.  A few close friends and dignitaries speak from a catamaran.  Someone hands out white orchids and many wear flower leis to toss into the circle--biodegradable all.  The circle grows so large that the loudspeaker becomes useless.  No one minds.  We’re simply glad to be part of this impressive community of watermen and women of all ages and races.  Here to honor our best.

Afterwards, they quietly climb back up the cliff, one-by-one, wet and barefooted, boards tucked under their arms, looking at once exhilarated and blessed. They gaze down on the crumbling steps with solitary smiles.  I lean over the top staircase wall and watch as their sandy toes hit the cement stairs below: long toes, suntanned toes, bandaged toes, pierced toes, gnarly toes, polished blue toes, hammer toes, kid toes.  All colors of toes with one common denominator, reverence for Jack O’Neill.  Most wear his wetsuit.  We thousands onshore applaud each one as they hit the top step, thanking them for representing us on the water.  Coming off the peaceful sea, they look surprised to see the throngs onshore.  We wear our faded O'Neill t-shirts with pride.  

A serene vibe is in the air with rocking music, dogs, skaters and kids. Nobody protests anything. Nobody asks for anything. Nobody sells anything, except two blond girlchildren presiding sandy-footed over their lemonade stand.  One small boy pulls a little red wagon full of bottled water.  Reverent Santa Cruz Police block off Pleasure Point to cars. They knew Jack and the unselfish work he did for kids with his Sea Oddessy Foundation.  Jack put thousands of kids on the water who had never been on a boat.  He offered kids hands-on education while encouraging them to protect our environment.  He wanted us all to experience the power, beauty and magic of the ocean.  It was Jack's way of giving back to the living seas which gave him so much.  

A Red Cross truck arrives with hot coffee and water.  No medical emergencies occur—the water lies flat and calm.  Great Whites stay beyond the kelpline.  One surfer paddles out with a scruffy brown dog riding the nose, ears flying.  The dog bails out once when the guy duck-dives into a breaking wave but, incredibly, the mutt springs back on board and shakes it off.  We bystanders cheer.  Over at the music stand they pass out commemorative waterproof packages of Jack’s favorite fruit-and-nut surf mix that advises: FEED YOUR ADVENTURE.  His picture on the label makes me smile. Wearing the familiar eyepatch, Jack flashes a sideways glance and that wicked grin. 

  

Murmurs from the heart


Murmurs of the Heart

"We'll start out as human gongs.  Become a human gong--spread harmony."  Gongggggggggggggggggg some of us can control our gong breath for quite some time.

"Breathe.”
Our writing group is practicing Sufi breathing, focusing on the journey while moving towards wholeness.  Eyes closed, our leaders explain water breath: hands on heart breathe in through the nose out through the mouth, as if breathing in and out of your heart.  Fire is the opposite: in through the mouth out the nose. Air: in and out the nose.  Earth: in and out the mouth . . . or the other way around.  Not sure.

Holding hands in a circle we breathe in deeply as our leader explains "Send the whole of your life force from your heart center down your arm into your hand and into the hand of the person on your right.  Send them your strength."

Gregory to my left begins to make choking noises.  I squeeze his hand and without opening my obedient eyelids I hiss through my teeth "Are you giggling?"

He makes a mewing sound. "Yes"' he moans.  He can barely speak.

I sneak a peek.  His face is contorted, eyes squeezed shut.  Breaking up he leans forward, shoulders shuddering with silent guffaws.  Church laugh.

I learned about church laugh when I was seven years old at Laurie's father's funeral.  She got really nervous and began to giggle in the church.  The rest of her second grade girlfriends sitting behind her began to stifle inappropriate nervous laughter which then welled up into tears, which in turn was appropriate.  I learned at age seven, if you get church laugh just let the tears flow and you might get away with it.  Parents nearby began to pat and comfort us which of course made us more hysterical.

But Gregory's an acupuncturist and Sufi breathing practice is meant to enlighten our 90 upcoming minutes of mindful writing.  This can't seem funny to an acupuncturist. When he was leader he stuck needles into our foreheads which he left dangling there through our hour long check-in meeting.  Yet he is definitely giggling now.

"Breathe in from your heart and out through your right arm and hand." Our leader gently guides us.  "Send that strength you've generated into the person's hand on your right.  Send your vitality, your full life force to that person, send it with all your heart."

Gregory is leaning down, wiping his eyes, silently convulsed.  I can't look at him.  I bite the insides of my cheeks.  "Breathe Gregory.  Send it to me".

"C-can't send" he stutters and snorts, "have heart problems."